cigarettes and yoga

I haven't had a cigarette today.. and I am dying for one. My granny told me earlier that I really should be careful about going outside at night to smoke on the back porch; because copperhead snakes may be trying to lay on the warm concrete. like, woah... thanks granny. AND, she told me this while I was saying that I get freaked out going outside at night. I am afraid of bears and honestly the silence is a little hard to handle at the moment, I mean I lived downtown lexington for 2 years-there was a constant state of noise whether it was people outside or sirens- there was always something. Here on the other hand, I hear the occasional dog bark, frogs, crickets and other types of bug noises and well... that is about it. The sky is so dark, the stars are like popping out of it. Which is pretty amazing and I wish I could find someone that wants to go lay up on a hill with me to look at the stars. Any takers? let me know-no commitments-no pressure for kisses or sex-just some innocent star gazing. man, i'm ridiculous.

While on my little adventure to the "big city" I acquired a tape from tucky; she gave me the first yoga video she ever watched-when she was 13. I watched it today and I must say I feel so good. I feel so light. does that make sense? I'm pretty sure that I am going to HAVE to start doing yoga on a daily if not regular basis at least. It just seemed to help me clear my mind and not worry about things-in general. haha. I was showing my granny and papaw a move (can't remember the name of it) but my papaw was like "oh, I can do that!" and he did... stood on one foot.lol.

anywho. I just wanted to make an update-explain how good I feel today. I made 2 youtube videos today-but only got one to post. poo-i'll post the other tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should have stopped writing my blogs on myspace or not... because only one person has came over to this site to comment. Which makes me sad.. because I'm a leo- i need attention- and I prefer to invite the attention via internet so if you are reading this then you really should leave me a comment.

enough. I am a searcher for attention sometimes and at other times I really could care less. It's strange. I'm going to attempt to stop smoking at least as much as I have been. The thing is- yes I want to quit because honestly I get embarrassed that I am a smoker-but otherwise I thoroughly enjoy smoking. blah blah blah. I do think that by doing yoga on a regular basis it may in fact help me to quit smoking because I will be so focused on my mind and body. Shit, we'll see. It's just talk right now-but at least it's in my head as something i would like to work on and explore.

goodbye.