Genderqueers <3

First of all, it's been way too long since my last post. I tend to forget about internet activities.

I was just reading the blog of an aquiantance in which she talked about Gender in Lexington. So, the posts made me feel like writing about my experiences in Lexington and in Kentucky as a Queer/Genderqueer person.

Being genderqueer isn't easy in Kentucky. My inbetween state of gender confuses most people and leaves me explaining things that most people either don't want to hear or don't understand. I think that the majority of people cannot fathom there being an inbetween or even more so that there could be NO gender. The gender binary is alive and well my friends... a man is this and a woman is this. That's how it is and the majority cannot see past this.

Although, I know a good handful of people in Lexington that call themselves genderqueer I don't really even hang out with them. I'm a loner, I'm not a social butterfly... I have a hard time becoming friends with people who have a large group of friends... so this kind of leaves me out of the genderqueer loop in good ol Lexington.

Louisville has a much larger amount of queers and genderqueers which is ONE (there are many) of the reasons I am almost certain I will be moving there. I think that in order for me to be happy I need to be surrounded by people that are similar or at least have a larger community that I feel comfortable with. On the other hand, I think to myself how much Lexington needs educated about genderqueers and/or queers... and how would I be helping if I just move?

I suppose I feel closer to the Transgendered community because it's a community used to dealing with gender... but in all honesty.. it is still NOT my community. I don't want to be a boy... I don't want to be a girl.. I just want to be me... genderless.... I have found myself uncovering more of my "girly-side" while living in this small town (paintsville). I think I feel a bit more on the outside when I dress too genderqueer.... and I HATE that this town has done that to me.

I can't wait for the day when I go to fill out a form and gender isn't on there anymore... I have hope.

Any comments or questions? Sometimes I don't explain myself well.. I tend to ramble... :)